Psycho Psychic

Yes, this title will make sense to you in a minute. I was just reading Cari's evotion and it got me thinking about my weekend. Cari is talking about that direct line to God and being able to hear what He says.
Stay with me on this, because it may seem like I'm off subject for a little bit here. I don't know that my family is as aware as my friends are, but I've been known to have a very intuitive nature. Off the top of my head, I will ask someone about their plans to have children. Within a week I get a phone call that they are pregnant. That is my strongest intuition. Once in awhile I will say something that seems way off base and it happens. For instance, a few weeks ago I was at work and my coworker and I were cleaning. She was tired and I just wanted to go home for the day. We had 5 clients left between us. I made the comment, "Watch! None of our last clients will show up."( Is that better Tari?) Sure enough, we stood around waiting and none of the final clients showed up, none of which were related. Mallory, who claims to have psychic dreams, was majorly impressed. She asked me what else I can "see." Friends have questioned my "abilities" before, and wondered how much I could predict. As always, I tell them I don't predict anything. I say something and it may or may not come true. True I made a comment during my second year in the Army that it would be a good deal to have a child right before getting out of the Army so that they pay for it, yet you don't have to stay in the service. Did I plan it that way with Takyra? NO. Did I know that the comment I made would come true? NO.
When I was stationed in Korea, one night I could not shake the idea that my boyfriend, who lived in Germany, was hurt somehow. I thought maybe he was sick or injured. This was odd because he never got sick. I tried all day to get in touch with him. Finally, I got a return call. He had been injured in a basketball game and had to get stitches, and he came down with strep throat. My intuition was calmed after hearing from him.
The question is and has been; "Am I psychic?" NO WAY! When friends ask, I have an answer that I know is right. I only get my strong intuition about people I am closest too, most of which are Christians. I believe that my angels are talking to their angels and whispering in my ear what's going on. Seriously, I do believe that God makes us all sensitive to the people closest to us. We all get "gut" feelings about things. Those aren't really gut feelings, it's God whispering in our hearts. We don't sit there and say " Okay gut tell me what to do!" We pray and we go with what our heart tells us to do, but so many times we say it is "gut instinct."
Yesterday, I was in touch with my angels and God. Before the church service I had been thinking about my past and it was weighing on me. I was also thinking about possibilities for the service. I had no idea what the service was about before I got to church, but sure enough I was right on track. Deja vous! Where it went bad, I had also had a thought about someone going into the church and taking Takyra. Sometimes my thoughts can be a bit psychotic, I know. We went to church in the morning and everything was fine. I was a little more at ease. Last night mom took Takyra to the store before taking her to church, while I stayed home. The thought weighed on me some more. I lay in bed ( I needed a major nap because my shoulder pain had me worn out) and turned on the TV. It was a show about child abductions resulting in death. My heart was pounding. I called mom's cell phone at least 10 times trying to get her to answer. I called church, but she was not there yet, so I knew Takyra had to be safe so far. I just sat there and prayed, "Lord, please protect Takyra!" Mom never called my phone back, but she did manage to call her house phone and my cell, which were not the ones I called from. Hello, return a call to the exact number that called you. I had to tell myself not to be the frantic mom. I was questioning my instinct.
So, how do I tell if my intuition (angel whispers) are real or not? I don't. Times like yesterday where it is a matter of my daughter's safety make me crazy. I had to question myself the entire time wondering if I was a bad mom for thinking it is just a crazy thought and it won't happen so just relax. What if she would have been taken and I was still sitting in my room trying to call my mom? (I would have blamed her first before taking the blame myself)
There are times I can't stand the intuitive thoughts. I have to hold strong and know that God will talk to me and I have to be open to what He is saying. I pray that my bad intuition never comes true.
My daughter came home safe and happy from church last night. I gave her a big hug, told I loved her, and explain stranger safety to her AGAIN. Isn't it sad though, my big realization in my thought yesterday, anyone can walk in to a church. It is great that the church has open arms to greet them, but how many of us would question a new face wandering around the church? As I tell Takyra all the time, "It only takes a minute for someone to take a child, if even that long." we all tell our children to stay close to us when we go shopping, or to an event, but we walk into church and trust that everyone there is genuinely good and of Christian faith. We let our kids go wherever they choose inside the church, because we believe them to be safe inside those walls. The harsh reality, I have walked through my church in the evening. There are only a couple of classes in the basement at night and the hallways rarely see any traffic at all. The rest of the church is in the service or nursery. There are exits both up and down stairs at each end of the church (it is a small church with one hallway straight through the upstairs and downstairs). My thought could have easily become reality.
So I label myself the psycho psychic! It makes me crazy and puts all kinds of horrible thoughts in my head. I praise God for returning my daughter to me everyday safe from the horrible people in this world. I see the news and hear about another child being abducted, and I don't want to know that feeling of having my child ripped from my life.
I don't understand how a person can look at a child they have never known and think they have the right to take them out of this world. Tarisa and I used to run around our neighborhood all the time without a care in the world. I don't allow Takyra out of the culdesac and someone is always out watching her. I pray that when she is out of my sight, God keeps her safe until she is back with me again.